Excuses, excuses, excuses.

I'm telling you, the reason I can identify all of the lame old excuses everyone uses is because I USE THEM! Some of them, I made up. Yep, you're welcome.
So I'm just finishing up about 12 hours of work. No joke. And we have been short handed because of the ladies are sick. Not good... pretty much just crazy (now, I know I'm a little crazy because I have been having fun.) Then tonight and tomorrow night we have Parent-teacher conferences. Makes for some long days for Miss Lorie. Yawn, i'm tired.

So, back to the point of this post. I didn't get out of bed this morning and run, yawn, I'm tired. So here it is almost 8 pm and I haven't got my exercise in... bring out the excuses.

1. I ate really well today, it won't hurt to skip a workout. (Seriously, I packed breakfast, lunch and dinner. Go me.)
2. I chased kids all day. That is a workout, right?
3. I'm tired, yawn.
4. It is late.
5. I haven't seen my dog kids all day (yes, I love them, a lot).
6. This list of BS goes on and on.

Now if you didn't catch this post read HERE. Any who, can I really not go get my butt on that treadmill after writing a post like that? I think not. Thanks for keeping me accountable ladies. I'm going to do it. Not because it is easy, or sounds hella fun right now, but because I AM COMMITTED!

But I AM SO TIRED! YAWN.

Monday weigh

Well I had a decent weekend. Not stellar but better than usual. Problem is the scale read 191. Now, for once I'm not going to beat myself up about this.  It is TOM and I'm technically down 1.2 from last Monday. Gonna kick it in the butt this week and see if I can permanently make it out of the 190's. (They have been much more difficult to kick than the 200's ) 

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NSV

I went to Zumba class. Yep, my first one! :) And I really loved it! Doing it again on Monday. Gotta stir up the routine so that I don't get bored and "take a break."

Happy Saturday!

188.4

Friday morning and the scales says "188.4" lets see how minimal I can keep the damage this weekend! The plan? 8:00 tomorrow 4 mile run, 9:30 Zumba with a friend.

Failing to plan is planing to fail! :)

Truth is, my head has been hella hungry all darn day! All darn day! Haven't done terrible, haven't done great!

Do as I say I'm doing...

Yep- Really. Here is the skinny. Remember how you go out to eat with your skinny friends? Or watch the skinny girl at the party shovel 8 pieces of pizza and a piece of cake the size of her head down her pie hole?

Well, I'm going to let you in on a little secret she doesn't eat like that all of the time, or spend all of her time on the couch... because if she did, she wouldn't be the skinny girl shoveling food at the party, but the chubby pretending like she always only drinks water and eats a salad. (I know because I've been her here.)

What sparks this? Check out this post from Lap Band Gal and all the awesome comments: Am I full of Sh*t? This post really got me thinking and analyzing how sometimes I bet my words don't match what people see.

The truth is 90% of the time I'm on track, counting calories, watching protein, staying away from desserts. When am I most likely to break these rules? When I'm out with friends at a party or some sort of celebration.

Examples: 1.  90%- I always drink water. I love it, and it is actually my beverage of choice.
10%- I will have a hot chocolate, or a glass of lemonade. (I'd actually say this is more like 2%-really, I love water)

2. 90%- Protein first then veggies.
10%- Pizza then cake

3. 90%- Running-biking-some kind of drench my fat in sweat kinda activity.
10%- Couch, movie, sweats!

4. 90% no dessert.
10% dessert the size of my head, or butt, depending on what is available.

I remember watching that skinny girl and envying her. Cursing my bad genetics and knowing that she got all the luck because she could eat like a pig. The truth is, that is a lie. There is work to be done to be healthy and there isn't anyway around it. Now when I see the slim girl enjoying herself at a party I know that Saturday morning she will be pounding the pavement, making her body hurt!

Moral of the story- don't justify your food choices by some other persons. You never know what their "actual" day looks like.

FAT CRACK!

This morning I had an epic day on the scale- no reporting because we all know i'm having heck keeping the chubby me in check on the weekends but I will say it was the LOWEST weight I've ever seen. :)

Anyway, ever had a day when FAT CRACK surrounds you all day? Come on, you all know what i'm talking about- Peanut butter cake, Nutty Bars, Butterfinger, fruit snacks, chips... nasty Goldfish crackers. Thats how you know you are just jonesin' (is that even how it is written?) for a fix, Goldfish crackers? Come on!

So I turned down that fake peanut butter cake during our lunch period, it looked good but my friend assured me it wasn't. I then went to fill my water around 1:00 and those dang lunch ladies had kindly offered up that FAT CRACK as a gift to the teachers. Then when I get to my parents to let the girls run, and to run myself, Mom had been to the store with my adorable nephew, no one can tell no... leading to all the other FAT CRACK!
So all day long I've been repeating to myself "INDULGING IN FAT CRACK LEADS TO A FATTER CRACK." I will not feed the inner chubby... I will not! Peace out 190's (Well hopefully)

Amazing advice...

First of all, there are amazing people in the world... And the ladies especially in my life ROCK!

Here is the advice:

1. Amber and her conviction that anyone can run, anyone.
1a. Amber she always tells me when the butt sagging pants are out of control.
2. Sheleah when she said "tell yourself you're going to get up each day and nourish your body." this reminded me that this isn't a diet. It is how I'm LIVING.
3. Erin when she told me "running is 90% mental." I always remind myself of that when I want to quit.
4. Amy when she put into words what I couldn't "Wow Lorie I think that's awesome! I'm glad that you're so open about having the surgery. I was always so afraid that people would view it as "cheating" or that I was too lazy to do it on my own and so my biggest fear was people finding out about it. The one thing that I hope everyone learns from you is that it is still hard work and you still have to be very disciplined. Lapband is not a cure...it's a tool and sometimes the easiest things for you to eat are the wrong things. Granted I have never been the whole exercise guru that you are, but it was still a long hard journey! And one that I have never regretted even with some of the side effects that come with it. I'm so proud of you and I wish you the best! You go girl!!!"
5. Jolynn and Jolene, thanks for always letting me talk about my big ole butt!
6. Mom, Dad, sister, brothers! The support and advice through all the hard life changes! Il admit, I haven't always been a sweetheart!!
7. Holly... Remember when you told me "that feeling of death is what we are looking for" well it frequently gets me going-started-finished-:) Thanks!
8. Amy, for giving me much needed fills and advice about the band. I think she has been more helpful than my surgeon was!
9. Paul, for saying (way before I started loosing weight, or was even thinking about it) to a girl that wasn't me. "Good for you for doing something about your weight, instead of just sitting around talking about it." Isn't that true? GET UP AND GET TO CHANGING!

Monday weigh

Last Monday: 194

This Monday : 192.2

Loss of 1.8

I'm happy it is a loss, but the scale Saturday morning said 190.6. So I'm still not doing great on the weekends.

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10 things Thursady....

1. My band is a fickle creature. Did you know it can take up to a week for a fill to kick in? I didn't realize it until the last fill. And then this one, .4! That means I now have more than I did when I had an unfil. I'm waiting for sweet restriction. :)

2. I'm doing a 12 week training thing for my 1/2 marathon. This is my 3rd week on WEEK ONE. Hold the applause.

3. Work was hard today.

4. Mini cow training is coming along. They don't sit and roll over yet, but I have faith they will get there.

5. Running 3 miles is not nearly as hard as it used to be. I'll run 13 miles just you wait and see. (I might walk the point 1.)

6. I read a post today (I can't remember who posted it, so please claim it if it is yours.)That with all the banded SUPERSTARS that are in this wonderful blog land, it is easy to forget that we are ROCKING this weightless business. Seriously, we rock. And we are refusing to be a statistic.

7. I think I've been in or on my first plataue. I DON'T LOVE IT but, I'm not giving up.

8. I'm still out on plastics (I know I have a long time before I need to decide.... Guess it will just depend on how bad things get.)

9. I'm glad tomorrow is fun Friday. Sometimes I just need to get back to the basics with my kiddos. :) what to do? What to do?

10. I got myself a Garmin 405. That's right I'm excited about something to work out. Kickin butts (yep plural) and taking names. I'm going to run outside with it Saturday. Unless we get some Vernal weather. Like, you know, -32 or something.

What is your excuse?

                      I wouldn't have even thought twice about this post until I went "public" but, though I do love most of you, I just have to keep it real.

I have heard every excuse in the dang books from too many people about why they can't exercise. About why it is easier for me, than it is for them. Now hold on to your "I'm offended face." I don't get to be offended when everyone is preaching to me about why I can do it and they can't... of a few of my personal you did not just say that, did you? favorites.

• You don't have kids.
• I can't run.
• You have the lap-band.
• I don't have money for the gym.
• I have too many other commitments.
• I have a life.
• I just don't have the time. 
• I work.
• I just don't like it.
• I have bad knees, ankles, butt... i've heard it all.
• I'll start tomorrow, Monday... February. 
• (Insert your own excuse here.)

My heck, the list of BS goes on and on. The truth is exercise is not a priority for you, end of story. If you want the truth, I'll give you a alternative to each of your lame ass excuses "reasons." (Now please, no one send me an email about their legit medical issues that keep you from exercising, the purpose of this post is for EACH AND EVERY ONE of us to evaluate the TRUTH about why we aren't moving more, why we aren't doing what we can.)

Now I'm not perfect, and there are some most days that I don't want to exercise, or eat right. I would rather come home from school and just hang-out! "Be still like vegetables... lay like broccoli." ~Pretty woman.
I have my own list of excuses, ready?

• My muscles are sore.
• I can lose weight without it (though slowly, or maybe not at this point in my journey.)
• It is too cold.
• It is too hot.
• I have dogs that need attention.
• I want to spend time with my family.
• I want to go ...
• I just DO NOT WANNA!

It isn't easy for anyone. Not even the mega fit people (at least I don't think.) 

So what I'm requesting is just identify your excuses reasons for what they really are.

“Quite often we change our jobs, friends and spouses instead of changing ourselves.” ~Akbarali H. Jetha

Got a fill today...

.4 put into my band. :) 1/17/12... just putting it here because sometimes I need to "look back" and see.

moving weigh in day

I'm moving weigh in day back to Monday. Reason? I can't be trusted on the weekends.

Monday weight: 194.0

Friday weight: 191.6

Gain of 2.4 pounds.

I'm changing the ticker and everything. This is for real.

Calling to get a fill tomorrow and I'm evaluating some things.  I'll be back later with my game plan.

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Girl Shit and a NSV

Wait for it.. there is a story. So I have this brother, and he is HILARIOUS! No joke. Anyway, my parents have been out of town so I've been spending some extra time at their house and hanging out with my little brother and sister. Well at 10:30 the other night, my brother was leaving and I said "Hey, where are you going." He said "To do boy shit." I about fell off of my chair laughing. The next day I thought, I'm going to go do girl shit. So I did.
Now do you wanna know what I consider "girl shit?" 1. halter breaking my new mini belted steers 2. moving couches 3. biggest bon fire ever (there was a boy in charge of this so i'll call this boy/girl shit.) Girl Shit gets to be whatever I want... and it is just fun to say. Come on, next time someone asks you what you've been doing just reply with "girl shit." VERY FUNNY!

Now you may ask what this post has to do with weight loss, pretty much nothing. I'm scheduling a fill because I'm tired of eating my way through the weekends. Essentially just dieting during the week. I've been stuck in the 191-3's for what feels like forever and I'm getting out! :) Upping the workouts this week and cutting out some of the calorie crazy food I've been eating.

NSV- I'm wearing 11/12 pants:)

mini belted as promised!

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Friday weigh in

Had my date with the scale this morning, little darling read 191. For a loss of 1 pound. And down 4 from my emergency on Sunday! :) happy Friday!

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10 things Thursday!

1. I bought some Mini belted steers this week. Yepper, miniature cattle:) Don't worry, I'll post a picture.

2. I think I might need a fill in this ole' band of mine, but I feel like I've been in an out a million times the last couple of weeks....

3. I went public with my journey this week. Different.

4. I'm almost obsessed with reading all your blogs.  I just barely keep it in check.

5. I love my job. Seriously, love it.

6. I do better with food choices when I'm at school. (One of my students said today "Miss Lorie, you just love M & M's, don't you?" So better, not perfect.

7. I can barely limit myself to two gummy viatmins. They taste almost exactly like a gummy bear... and well, enough said.

8. I love the movie "Pretty Woman." Random right? I'm watching it right now.

9. I've been a terrible dog owner this week. I bet they both have an add in the paper "Great dogs, seeking new human, our sucks."

10. I've only ran twice this week. How does this happen?

banded ladies...

So, I went public yesterday! Put the link to my blog right there on Facebook (anyone wanna be FB friends too?)
Anyway... I forgot how seriously personal the begining of the blog was. :) Awkward, but real!

Just keep swimming. Just keep swimming!

Lorie

The glass is 1/2 empty...

Or at least it sure as heck better be! I'm traveling for work today. So I'm making a point to drink water like it is my job. What are you doing to make sure your day goes how you want it to?

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I will not sabotage

I've been repeating this over and over in my head BECAUSE I finally saw 192 on the scale again this morning. We all know what happened after Fridays weigh. Dang I hate losing the same weight twice! Now to lose some more so I can report a loss on Friday!

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Breaking the rules...

So, the weightloss seems to be drawing a lot of attention at work these days and I've been sick and tired of being asked "what have you been doing" "what diet are you on?" So, this is my reply:

"I had lap-band"
Yep, thats right ladies, no other explanation. :) Breaking all sorts of rules. I live life on the edge.

Emergency

After a pretty epic day with the scale on Friday.. this is what Saturday turned into.

Breakfast 1 Large banana- 120 calories
Breakfast still? 2 servings of crunchy cheeto's- 320 calories.

Lunch: 2 Chicken strips 400 calories
White Gravy- 200 calories
Hot Chocolate- 112 Calories

Snack? (Who knows) 2 cups fruit loops- 220 calories
Finished the cheeto's 2 servings- 320 calories

Dinner: 3 (YES 3 FREAKING SLICES) pizza - 840 HUGE calories

2 brownies- 200

For a total of 2,733 calories.

Can you imagine? What go into me? The scale said 195.5 this morning. I'm going to have to do some major, major damage control in the next couple of days.

I thought I was so in control of the food I was consuming, guess old habits die hard.

Recovering (hopefully) food addict.

Friday.... scale love!

Today is "official scale day" and the results are in 192 for a loss of 2 pounds (3 if you read an earlier post where I state I'd gained a pound right after my last Friday weigh.) 

Nothing like a loss on the scale to start the year off right.

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10 things Thursday

Who started this? I feel like I'm stealing something that doesn't belong to me, but I'm going to do it anyway.

1. My body has been rebelling against me tonight. I think I may be pushing the running a little too much. (I just want it documented here, because one day it will be easy, and I don't want to forget how far I've came. Running 3 miles @ 5 mph is really hard for me right now. I just want to remember that one day something will be easy that used to be REALLY FREAKING HARD!)  I'm thinking I may need to up my calories a little. Which my fat mind is rebelling against. (Last night I ran so hard that I couldn't eat dinner, every single thing I thought of made me want to hurl.)

2. I'm thankful my parents have a treadmill, so I can think about hurling at home. (Some people hate the treadmill, I like it. To me, hell would be doing 15 laps on the tiny track at our local rec center for 1 MILE! I'd lose track before I got to 45.)

3. I think I may be slightly addicted to my phone. No good.

4. I got new glasses... and I love them.

5. I'm going to post on what a typical "day of eating" for me  is like ... sometime.

6. Running is my favorite form of torture. Just always feels like the best work out for me.

7. I struggle getting 5 days a week of exercise in. I'm really good at 4, maybe 3. 5 I have to work at. Especially if they are going to be meaningful.

8.  The bike tonight made my woman "bits" fall asleep. Thought I was going to fall over before I could get feeling back.

9.  I went shopping last Saturday (had to take money out of savings to pay my gas bill) but got new clothes and they have been fabulous.

10.  It must be the clothes that fit because the ladies at work have been going crazy this week. "Shrinking woman" has been tossed around. Someone today also commented on how much water I drink. I thought "you ought to see how often i have to run to the bathroom."

The secret to exercise..

It is 90% mental (at least for me)

The thing about exercise is that sometimes I just don't wanna... I mean seriously, I was a fat couch potato for 23 years, it doesn't just change. But, I have NEVER finished a workout and thought "Oh my heck, I wish I wouldn't have done that." (I have thought "I think I'm going to throw up" or "I'm pretty sure I am going to die.) 

Case in point the 3 mile run I just went on. I was committed to 3 miles when I got on the treadmill. .2 miles in, I thought, 1 mile will be enough... maybe even a 1/2 mile will be plenty. 

I just told myself "you said 3 miles, we are doing 3 miles." I kept pushing and I did 3 miles, no walking and it felt so good and I was proud of myself. Yes proud of myself. So here is my push:

If you are debating working out JUST DO IT! If you can't run, walk, if you don't wanna walk, bike, just do something. The couch will be there when you get done. 

Oh, and hook yourself up with some good tunes:) 

Lorie 

Back to real life...

Back to routine! And man am I ready!
I've had the last 12 days off and I have enjoyed them... maybe a little too much! hehe

Just like Athena Banded Warrior wrote HERE, i'm not the same person I was last year. I'm not going to climb in a hole and eat the rest of the year away. I'm getting back on track (which to the old me I hadn't even spent the last 12 days "off track").

Things I did right:
1. Drank water, and pretty much only water. I don't drink alcohol, and other beverages just don't seem to hold their appeal anymore.
2. Portion size pretty much under control (except going overboard with a little pizza one night).

Things I did wrong:
1. High calorie food choices/ meals that were not planned out.
2. Not moving enough.

I just got done running and i'm ready to finish out this week with a loss (which will mean I have to get the 1 pound gain, since las Friday, back off the scale and then some.)

Isn't it nice to not just be changing our bodies, but the way we look at life?

Love it! :)

my cup runneth over...

Or not. 

So here is the skinny, I have complained a few times about how the last 20 pounds must have come from my chest. Proof? I went to VS and decided I'd have the overbearing girl measure me. The results?
I was wearing a 42 DD and am now wearing a 36 C.

Her face was priceless! I'm excited about having a bra that fits. A little sad that weight has to come from my chest.