Friday, May 25, 2012

A little late...TTT

1. I went dress shopping with my roommate this week. It was a fun experience and awesome to not hit the plus sized rack:) Gotta love that... but

2. The lady there asked "what size." I honestly had no idea. I told her I had lost quiet a bit of weight, and thought I was around a 12. She asked "how did you lose weight." Well I've always been open about my band, but I'm getting so I just tell people "east less, move more." Honestly most people DO NOT CARE how you did it. If the person is asking because they want to lose weight too, then I share about the band! I want anyone that can, to benifit. Anyway, so I told her "eat less, move more." You know what she said? "It is so nice to hear of someone doing it the right way. So many people cheat and have surgery and just take the easy way out." I just smiled, but really I wanted to scratch her eyes out. Easy way out? When was the last time running was easy? Oh- damn her!

3. This lady from the dress store is hleping me get a dress on and my top is much smaller than my stomach. She said; "oh, girl, you can buy you some of those (boobs). I did." So why is it ok to buy boob, but not ok to have a surgery to get healthy? Argh.

4. The lady from number two and three seriously ticked me off.

5. My sister graduates TODAY! Yahoo!

6. There are supposed to be 30 mph winds and rain for said graduation... and yes, it is outside.

7. Today is also the last day of school for the year! :)

8. Things in band land are goin well! Feeling much more in control, and working that band!

9. I wonder how having a less structured schedule will affect my eating habits? I'm on the lookout for bad food choices to sneak in! Prepared to kick them to the curb.

10. My one year bandiversary is a week from today. My 25th birthday is 8 days from today. My 1/2 marathon is 50 days from today! Gotta step up the distance runs!

Happy Summer vacation ladies! :)

Wednesday, May 23, 2012

Weighing in

Start weight: 277
Last week: 173.8
This week: 171.2
Weekly loss: 2.6 pounds (repeat pounds, after a gain)
Total loss:105.8

"Put your shoulder to the wheel."

2.5 days left of school. :)

Friday, May 18, 2012

Awesome and athletic

How easy is it to forget how awesome you are? I'm telling you, I can see the good in almost all people, especially the beautiful women in my life but, when I look in the mirror, it is harder to remember.
You know what? I'm a strong, athletic (don't laugh), smart, crazy, stubborn Dragon Warrior. I can do anything I set my mind too.
While running tonight, I just kept thinking "you are amazing." It is true.
And it felt so good.
I really like numbers- especially numbers that pertain to my weight loss- especially that number going down. Random fact that I thought about while running today? If I only lose 1/2 pound a week for the next year, I'll be at goal. That I can do! :)

Thursday, May 17, 2012


1. Alright kids, I skipped weigh in Wednesday. I'm pretty sure I was the only one that noticed, or that felt guilty about it. I was up 2 pounds. It hasn't been pretty. I'm taking care of it.

2. I've been analyzing why I'm up two pounds. Why I haven't lost any real weight in a month. I think the answer is for the first time I've started to feel comfortable in my skin, almost skinny. Almost. So I haven't been actively trying to lose more weight, but last week I went overboard and gained weight. It scared the crap out of me. It was like an big fat slap in the face.  I never want to go back to that place again, where I feel out of control and I'm beating my body up. I want to join Lap Band Gal on the maintenance bench sooner, rather than later.

3. Sometimes my fat brain talks my body into thinking it doesn't like exercise, like it is going to hurt the way it did 100 pounds ago. If I ignore that voice, and just do it, I feel like a Dragon Warrior.
I'm adding this knowledge to my bag of weapons.

4. I went running, my body feels great and my mind feels clear. It is amazing what it does for me.

5. I only have 6 days of school until Summer vacation! I love my students, but I'm ready to bike, ride horses, chase cows, run, hike, camp... oh the list is endless!

6. I hope I can always recognize and stop these bad food cycles that happen occaisonally. I want to be fit and healthy for life.

7. I have been making the most delicious protein shakes for breakfast. How does banana caramel sound? 2 cups, 350 calories and 41 grams of protein! YUMMY!

8. My Lil Sis graduates from HS next week! Incredibly proud of her!

9. My mini Herefords still haven't calved, can you IMAGINE! Dang them!

10. I am going to have to start running in the mornings, because there are too many fun things to do in the evenings now that it is warming up. :)

Thursday, May 10, 2012

10 TT

1. I like cows more than I like humans some  most days... seriously, at least a person usually knows they are going to try and put you to the ground, knock the air out of you...

2. It is REALLY stupid to not like someone just because they have a disability. In whos world does that make sense? I don't expect you to like them just because they do, but I do expect you to give them a chance and not be stupid. For real.

3. I don't wear matching socks. Drives some of my students crazy. It is hilarious. I sometimes wear matching socks on Friday's and you can tell that it just balances out their world.

4. I am OBSESSED with new workout clothes. Just bought my first pair of cycling shorts, how official is that?

5. Lap Band Gal is saving me a seat on her snazzy bench. I'll be there, soon! Can't wait to party with all you ladies. (In m-land)

6. I have a serious crush on Dr. Reid... Criminal Minds :)

7. I buy the same type of razor that my Dad does, then I become a nija, sneak in his house in the middle of the night, and steal a package of the replacement blades he buys in bulk.

8. My head hunger today is OUT OF CONTROL!

9. All I've wanted to do the last 30 days is buy new clothes, not good on the budget.

10. I'm starting to feel not skinny, but average sized. Being overweight is kinda rad. Maybe that is why I've had a harder time focusing on the scale going down? Thoughts ladies?

Wednesday, May 9, 2012

Weekly Weigh in

Start weight: 277
Last week: 172.2
This week: 171.8

Loss of .4

Rocking this.. just doin me. This week so far I have been on a 10 mile road bike ride, 5 mile run and a 18 mile bike ride!

:) Happy Wednesday. I love this WTF Wednesday, so maybe I'll post later.

Tuesday, May 8, 2012

A fill, and another NSV!

Oh- yeah, NSV's (Non scale victories) never get old.

1. My lap-band lady (Hey Amy) gave me a fill today. Said it is easier to find the port because I'm getting skinny. (Now, I'm not skinny-yet) but it is nice for a medical professional to be happy with my weight instead of worried I'm going to drop dead any second. Or that awkward "you need to lose a little weight talk." :) I'm one happy girl.
 1a. I gave Amy some of my "cards" to give out. I really want to get a support group going. I know a lot of you say yours has been very helpful in your success with lap band.

2. I biked for 18 miles tonight. 12 (ish) miles per hour. Kicking butt and taking names. Last fall I could make it about 6 (maybe) before I thought I was going to die.

3. I shared my lap band story today. Gave out a card (yeah, i'm official like that.) I just want everyone to know there is a tool that will help you. That you can lose the weight, do everything you ever dreamed of doing, but that it won't BE EASY!

All things in moderation, and I'm doing AWESOME!

It is so good to be back, to be out of the dumps and slumps! :)

Monday, May 7, 2012

Huge non scale victories.

1. Today I ran instead of eating my emotions. I didnt even know really before the band that I was an emotional eater (any emotion.) I think I just ate all of the time, so it wasnt there to identify. 2. That goes along with 1. I ran 5 miles, outside in the wind, in 60 minutes. Dragon warrior is back and kicking butt. Sanka Coffie says; "All I'm saying, mon, is if we walk Jamaican, talk Jamaican, and *is* Jamaican, then we sure as hell better bobsled Jamaican" Just do you.

Sunday, May 6, 2012


Stella's got her groove back,
or maybe Lorie, but seriously.

I went riding bikes today (with bad-a SIL) and had a great time. When I looked at my shadow? I couldn't believe that skinny girl sitting on the bike, was me.

You see, I've forgotten, how far I've come. Last time I rode my bike? I weighed 230 pounds (September 2011) ! Yepper, and let me tell you what a difference it has made.

Now the truth is, I haven't been making the best food choices ALL OF THE TIME, but I've not gained any weight, I've stayed active, and kept portions under control. I haven't gone back to the way I was.

I have finally identified what was holding weighing me down. I've spent every day the last 3 weeks telling myself that I wasn't good enough, that I wouldn't and couldn't be as good as everyone else. Well guess what? I only need to beat myself, I only need to do better than I've been doing.

Without a "new fangled point system" without "a I've gotta run as fast as so and so." No "I shouldn't haves, could haves, and maybe so's."

I'M BACK to doing what I've been doing, what I've done to the last 11 months. What I've done to lose 104.8 pounds.

What I will do to lose 27 more pounds.

Kickin' my own ass, not because I want to be as good as someone else, not to be as fast, or lose as much. Just to beat me.

This is a race against me, against where I was, against pushing my own limitations. BEATING LORIE.
There is no finish line.

Dead Last Finish is greater than Did Not Finish, which trumps Did Not Start.~ Anonymous 

Wednesday, May 2, 2012

weekly weigh

Start weight: 277
Last weeks weight: 172.2
This weeks weight: 172.2 (Seriously, exactly the same. How did that happen?)
Total Loss: 104.8 pounds.

I'm doing much better with food and exercise. Running my butt off and keeping the sugar/carbs under control. Still finding my weight loss "style" if that makes sense. I'll do a post on it some time soon.

Happy Wednesday Ladies!

Oh, does horse riding count as workout Wednesday? Going for a ride in the mountains with my brother, sister and my brothers girl! :) Maybe I'll take a picture...