Wednesday, February 29, 2012

Wedenesday weigh in and NSV... I rocked it.

I killed the weight loss this week… seriously; even lost over the weekend. Like I said I’m sick of the 180’s and I’m taking care of it.
Drum roll please…
Last week: 187 (up 1.6 from the week before.)
This week: 182.6 down 4.4 pounds
Start weight: 277
Total loss of: 94.4

NSV #1- I like my undershirts tight to help with the loose belly. I bought a size SMALL last night; 3 of them, OMG (Like I said I like them tight, so don’t get any ideas about my top size being size small by any means.)
NSV #2- Size 9/10 pants.
NSV #3- I don’t do my measurements monthly. In fact I don’t have “start measurements.” What I do have are measurements from September and measurements from last night. I’ve lost 27.75 inches.
(I'm very sad I don't have more measurements.)

Monday, February 27, 2012

weekend awesomeness ....

I lost weight over the weekend. It is a miracle my friends. Happy Monday!

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Saturday, February 25, 2012

1 year blogging

Ive been blogging for a year this week! When I started blogging I wasn't planning on having the lap band, but it didn't take me long to make the choice when I couldn't get my hunger under control.
My blog was private and I didn't count on ever having people reading it. I can't tell you how much blogging has helped me to stay accountable. And I love when people read.

I haven't regretted my decision for one minute. I'm no longer the 277 pound girl afraid of life and what is holding me down. All those fears from my first post are history. Except maybe that boy one, it is still very real at times.
Best news? It's only the beginning.

Friday, February 24, 2012

Dragon warrior

Someone posted a question on their blog about "how do you give yourself a pep talk, without getting down on yourself." My answer is, I don't, I rub my own face in the pile of crap i've been telling myself. Then I outline how i'm goign to fix it. Knock myself down, then fix what is wrong.
I am crazy sick and tired of the 180’s. Seems like I’ve been gaining and losing the same 2 pounds for 2 weeks and I’m not gonna do it anymore. Want to know how I can be so sure; because it is completely my choice. I'll be out of them by March 15th.  (179.9)
Watched Kung Fu Panda this week- got the following quote from it: “Then I guess my body doesn’t know I’m a Dragon warrior yet. It is going to take a bit more than dew, and, uh, universe juice. “
My word for 2012 is FIERCE! Yepper, I’m going to be a Dragon Warrior. It is kinda like a honey badger.  I knew that the last 50 pounds would be hella hard to get rid of. I’m not giving up. This isn’t for today, tomorrow, or a year from now.
On a happy note it is warm outside today and I’m going to go running!

Thursday, February 23, 2012

10 things Thursday

1. I'm getting mini herefords. Yea, don't worry, I'll post a picture.
2. I was banded 1 day before my 24 birthday. It was my birthday present to myself. I didn't think it could get any better that. This birthday , I am giving myself the "present of being 110 pounds lighter". Only 20 pounds to go. Man each birthday just gets better and better.
3. I thought the hardest part of this journey would be giving up soda. He'll was I wrong. I haven't even really missed it. There are so many other harder things.
4. When I eat like crap , I don't want to move. Then it just turns into this cycle. I can identify it now. That's huge for me.
5. I havent ran since 2/8/12. I've done other exercise, no running.
6. My dog is a big lady. When she runs around like crazy I always tell her "you're why we can't have nice things." it always makes me smile.
7. I was up this week on my weigh in. But this morning I'm down even from last week? What the hell?
8. I think I could spend my life chasing cows. I think they are awesome.
9. Im working this weekend. I like t stay busy.
10. I'm pretty sure I have the best roommate ever! Seriously, I can eat the last banana, forget to mop the floor,

Wednesday, February 22, 2012

Food demons- weigh in wednesday

The scale reported exactly what I expected, maybe a little less. I gained this week and it is my own fault.

I didn't "exercise" since last Wednesday. Though I did spend about 10 hours a day Friday - Monday on a horse. (Did you know cowboy food isnt very band friendly?) Anyway... to the weight thing.

Last week: 185.4

This week: 187.

Gain of 1.6 pounds.

Total loss if 90.

I just can't seem to get the food demons to stop screaming. The band may keep me from eating an entire bag of Cheetos at once, but I can graze on it all day and polish that sucker off. Argh, I gotta get this under control! Zumba tonight. Though I've already ate half the world.

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Tuesday, February 21, 2012

Getting a piece, falling to pieces and Reeses Pieces...

There are a few things that come to mind for me when someone says “piece, or pieces.”  
1.       Reeses Pieces. Seriously, I can connect just about anything to food. Lovely friend at school brought me Reese’s Pieces the day after falling to pieces, with a note about getting a piece. Don’t worry I ate that King Size box all by my lonesome.
a.       Here is how Reese’s Pieces connects to “falling to pieces” and getting a “piece”
2.       Falling to pieces: One day last week was terrible for me. I don’t know why, I kinda just fell apart. I pretty much never do that… ESPECIALLY not at school.  Awkward. So that was the “falling to pieces.” Well my lovely friends were there to tell me I wasn’t a failure, and that everything would be fine.  I joked with them about needing to just sit on the couch with a good looking boy, watch a movie, and forget about all the stress.
3.       Getting a piece: That brought up the other “pieces” (now watch where your mind is going…  I’m just talking about some hand holding and a little kissing, then maybe a little debate about cow breeds or something.)
a.       Believe me, the intelligent debate about cows is the most rewarding/difficult part to find. 
b. There is a man, but boy is it slow moving. No kissing or hand holding. Can you believe that? Somone being able to resist me for so long?

Sunday, February 19, 2012


I have the same ring size as my skinny roommate!

Started at 8 1/2 -9

Now a size 7! Oh the little things that make me happy!

Thursday, February 16, 2012

10 things Thursday!

1. People actually read my blog... always surprises me! It is important for keeping me accountable! :)
2. Jillian Micheals and running in the same night; kicked my butt! Then I did Zumba the next night. Ouchy, my muscles in my legs and belly are KILLING!
3. Has anyone replaced their food addiction with something else? You don't have to share if you don't want to. Or have you found your self "hiding" how little food you actually ate, instead of "hiding" the crazy amounts of food you consumed (like before surgery)?
4. My dog and the dang cut on her leg is making me crazy! Can't wait until it is healed.
5. Today is my Friday and I'm going to spend the next 4 days on horseback chasing some cows around.
6. My eyebrows need some attention. There is basically just one of them. Oh well, the cows won't care.
7. I like manly men. They are so hard to find.
8. Bought some new workout clothes. Size large! :)
9. I don't really like to watch movies unless it is just one I can't turn down. I very rarely watch the same movie twice. (Except 'Pretty Woman.' I love Julia Roberts). When I do watch tv it is usually for background noise not actually watching it (Except 'Criminal Minds.' I love Dr. Reid.)
10.  I love Adele.

Wednesday, February 15, 2012

Wednesday Weigh

Last Wednesday: 185.6
Today: 185.4
Loss: .2 pounds.

Start weight: 277
Total Loss: 91.6

I'm always hoping that the scale will forgive me- just this one time- for eating like crap. Good news, it doesn't work that way.
Workouts have been pretty good, food , not so much! :) Just gotta keep on keepin' on!

Tuesday, February 14, 2012

What have you given up?

You have to decide what your highest priorities are and have the courage - pleasantly, smilingly, nonapologetically - to say 'no' to other things.  And the way to do that is by having a bigger 'yes' burning inside.  The enemy of the 'best' is often the 'good.'  ~Stephen Covey

Around 11 months ago I thought of the having the lap-band surgery. I know people well that have had it, but I really just never pictured it as a choice for me. You know? When it crossed my mind, I knew my insurance wouldn't pay, and I wondered "what are you willing to do, Lorie?" I knew I would do anything to get the money.  So I borrowed the money from my parents interest and all. And worked out how I would make the payments, what I was willing to change. 

When I figured the money out, I asked myself "what are you going to do, Lorie, to make sure you aren't another statistic? (Only losing 50% of my excess weight) To make sure you aren't just pissing on 10,000 dollars and flushing it down the toilet? I knew I would do anything to make it work. Before I was huge on blogging I wrote this questions in my journal. "What if, for one year, you only worried about yourself, about weight loss, instead of anything else." The way I decided to accomplish this is to "Say 'no' to other things." 

I've missed out on many movie nights and various fun times. I've skipped social events when I knew the food would be too tempting. Or I would have to miss a work out to attend. 
This isn't to say that I haven't had fun, met knew people, enjoyed life. OR THAT IT HAS ALWAYS BEEN EASY. It is just a new sort of enjoyment. Something I knew I'd need time to adapt as a lifestyle, instead of some "phase" i'm through to lose weight!  

You have to decide what your highest priorities are and have the courage - pleasantly, smilingly, nonapologetically - to say 'no' to other things.  And the way to do that is by having a bigger 'yes' burning inside.  The enemy of the 'best' is often the 'good.'  ~Stephen Covey

My bigger YES!  

Draggin' butt

I don't wanna do the following things:

1. Go running, or really, do any kind of exercise. 
2. Skip dessert. I've eaten some sort of dessert for the last 5 nights.
3. Stop eating M&M's for breakfast, snack, dessert, whatever it is I want them to "cover."
4. Toss the Valentine's candy I got at school today.
5. Go running, or really, do any kind of exercise. 
6. Eat something that isn't deep fried for dinner.
7. Take my vitamins. (I know when I get to this point i'm just being obstinate.) 
8. Go running, or really, do any kind of exercise. 

Reason I will do each of these: I AM SO FREAKING SICK OF BEING FAT. I know how to fix it. I'm just bummed that sometimes it isn't someone else's "will" that I get to use. Son-of-a-gun. I'm going, I'm going. 

Thursday, February 9, 2012

ten things Thursday

1. I'm crazy sick of being fat and you know what? I'm doing something about it... keeps me kicking butt at the gym, and thinking twice about the food I put in my mouth.

2. I wanted to be down to 177 by Valentines day- it ain't gonna happen. No way, no how! Just gonna keep on keeping on.

3. I haven't had time to breath this week, let alone blog and comment, but I'll be back soon.

4. I'm tired of people telling me my goal weight is "too low." We shall see.

5. I ran 5 miles this week, without stopping, in 60 minutes. I'm crazy awesome.

6. 3rd Zumba class of the week tonight! I'm lovin' me some Zumba.

7. Will I ever feel skinny? I know that people won't believe me but I still feel the same. Yep pretty much the same as 91.4 pounds ago. How is that possible. I know my clothes sizes get smaller, that I can move like a crazy person (one day I'll be an athlete.) but I still feel like a morbidly obese person slinking around the Universe, trying to stay unnoticed.

8. My obsession for shoes has kinda been replaced by workout clothes- maybe work out shoes- ok- maybe it is still shoes.

9. I got selected for Jury duty! It was like a crazy slap in the face that said "welcome to adulthood." I don't like it.

10. Thank heavens tomorrow is Friday!

Wednesday, February 8, 2012

Becasue I don't know always know the answer...

And because it is my blog, my journey and my weight loss... I'm moving my weigh-in day, once again. It was Monday, then Friday, then Monday, so I think I'll try Wednesday. Good old Wedensday:) So here it is, and I'm not ever promising I won't move it again. I just want it to be the most accurate reading, good or bad of my weight.

Start weight: 277
Monday's weight: 187.6
Todays weight: 185.6
Weekly loss of: 2 pounds.
Total loss: 91.4

Happy Wednesday!

Tuesday, February 7, 2012

Photo update...

Today- 187! :) 
College Graduation 250? 

College Graduation 250? 

Moving cows Summer 2010- 265 ish

Monday, February 6, 2012

monday weigh

Start weight: 277

Today's weight : 188.6

Last Monday : 191

Total weekly loss: 2.4

This is the second work day in a row that the water cooler has been out of water. Stinking drop the pop challenge all the faculty is embracing! Drink your soda ladies!:) I kid, I kid. Though the the tap water tastes metallic (yucky) ... I'm such a baby, but I'm not drinking it!

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Thursday, February 2, 2012

10 Things Thursday

1.       Today is my 9 month bandiversary… can you believe it? I’m “un-officially” down 90 pounds. To me it is just a miracle that I have been losing weight for 9 months. I have had my ups and downs lost more some months than others, but I love the way I live now. Eating to live, instead of living to eat. (Most days) 42 pounds to go!
2.       Running is kinda gross. At least for me. There is sweating, spitting, the need to pee (I’ve yet to become so intense that I do this while running.) Gas occasionally? No wonder a person loses weight; it gets rid of all the liquids and air.
3.       My family has been facing some challenges lately. I’m so grateful for their “put your shoulder to the wheel” attitude. Sometimes it doesn’t take finesse, just brute strength.
4.       I’ve never had trouble drinking water (unless it is right after a meal) I can guzzle that stuff. Maybe that is why I can easily get my 100+ ounces in every week day (dang weekend… but I always get at least 70 ounces on the weekend.)
5.       I’ve decided that it is easier to be single and banded than have a SO. Post to follow.
6.       I need a hair cut…
7.       I worked two, 12 hour days in a row, and then I went home and ran. Kicking those excuses in the butt and taking control of my own life, and my own weight.
8.       I appreciate Lap Band Gal’s attitude about the lose skin that comes with extreme weight loss.  (Or what I perceive as her “attitude” I can’t claim to have talked to her about it.) To me it just seems like it is her reminder of where she has been, nothing to be ashamed of. Kinda like a scar to remind you of how badass you are. LBG please correct me if I am wrongJ
9.       Work has been hard this week. Very stressful. I have not once turned to food.
10.   I AM GOING TO KICK the weekend in the butt. My Monday weigh will rock. As soon as I prove to myself that I can make it through a weekend and not gain weight, I’m going to move weigh-in to Wednesday. Just like Athena Banded Warrior said: “I’m HBIC around here.”
a.       I LOVE ZUMBA! Why did it take me so long to start going? Gotta kick the chubby mentality.