Confession time!I spent January, February and March of this year convinced my band didn’t work.
For serious.I thought I had just somehow convinced myself to diet for 18 months and the band had never done anything for me.
No joke.My weight had gone up.
I couldn’t get full.My cravings were out of control.
I thought “this thing doesn’t work.” “It has never worked.”thought “Lorie, you have no willpower, none.”
I was trying to eat the same foods/portions as always.I was exercising.
I was failing.At 186, 24 pounds up from my lowest (162), I started researching different diets.
Diets that had never worked for me before and in the back of my mind, I knew they wouldn’t work again.Desperate to get to my goal weight and fraught with worry that I would wake up at 277+ as a failure.
Finally, Monday April 8th I went to see Amy for a fill.She is always so nice and so supportive.
I wanted her to yell at me. Give me a serious do better talk. Tell me to get off my butt and not make excuses. I wanted her to tell me that it was my fault, that I wouldn’t be successful. Self destruct much?I think I wanted to give up because what I was doing just wasn't working.
She didn’t do that. She added .3, told me to come back if I thought I needed more. Told me I knew what I was doing and that I am her model “lap bander.”
She told me I could succeed…So I left hopeful.
You know what? Those first 15 months my band was working because it is working now.
How do I know?
1. I can eat 1 cup of food and be full for up to 4 hours.
2. My food choices are not limited because I am NOT too tight.
3. I am not hungry between meals and BECAUSE of that it is easier to not snack and to pass by foods I know I shouldn’t eat.
My band doesn’t do all of the work, but it does 20% of it.
The 20% that I can’t do on my own.
20% of added, artificial Will Power!