TTT and a *2013* update

1. Just started watching Downtown Abby- It is pretty good. No TV at our house, this is on loan from a friend.

2. I have actually left work 2 days in a row and the sun was shining, air was clean! Spring is in the air? The mid 20's feel awesome!

3. Today was 100th day of school. Bow-chica-wow-wow.

4. CrossFit is awesome. I have never been so sore in my life.... the scale is up and down 2-3 pounds every day. I'm going to get a complex.

5. I Need a day off...

6. Seriously wish I could tell you all about some of the dates I have been on recently, a girl can't make this stuff up.

7. Considering getting a masters degree in special education, or doing the administrative internship program that my school district offers.

8. High five to all of you ladies who are out and about running in the freezing temperatures! You are my hero!

9. I am adding the goal of paying off my car this year to my 2013 plan. Lets see how it goes.

10. A reiveiw of my 2013 goals-

1. No new clothes until I am at goal weight- anything 145 or lower. Doing well- haven't purchased anything. 
2. Run 6 races, doesn't matter the length or the difficulty. Just get out there and race. Signing up for the dirty dash, and maybe a bike race. 
3. Weigh 145 by my 2 year bandiversary. I've got 5 months to lose 30 pounds. *Totally doable.* (Nods to self.) Haven't lost a real stinking pounds since the begining of the year.  Just going to keep on it. 
4. Make exercise something I just do. Right now I am in love with CrossFit and have been doing it for 2 weeks. 
5. Get married. Well this isn't progressing as fast as I'd like but I'm not giving up on it yet:) 
6. Pay off my surgery loan. Pay off car. (I switched to car because the interest rate is higher.)I'm not sure this is doable, but I am inspired by all of the financial goals out there to give it a hell of a shot. 
7. Get a treadmill at my house. NO EXCUSES. (-13 this morning at 7:45, too stinking cold.) *No treamill yet but I have been going to CrossFit so I haven't stressed about it.*

Weigh in Wednesday

Start weight: 277
Last week: 177
This week: 173.6

Total loss of: 103.4

Weekly loss: 3.4

I am happy with this loss and expect some flucuation the next few weeks because of the different type of exercise I am doing. We will see how it goes.

What is Crossfit?

Crossfit is (by Wiki definition):

CrossFit describes its strength and conditioning program as “constantly varied, high intensity, functional movement,"[4] with the stated goal of improving fitness and therefore general physical preparedness,   which it defines as "work capacity across broad time and modal domains."[5] Workouts are typically short—20 minutes or less—and intense, demanding all-out physical exertion. They combine movements such as sprinting, rowing, jumping rope, climbing rope, flipping tires, weightlifting,  carrying heavy objects, and many bodyweight exercises;  equipment used includes barbells, dumbells, gymnastics rings, pull-up bars, kettlebells, medicine balls, and boxes for box jumps.[6][7][8] These elements are mixed in numerous combinations to form prescribed "Workouts of the Day" or "WODs". Hour-long classes at affiliated gyms, or "boxes," typically include a warm-up, a skill development segment, the high-intensity WOD, and a period of individual or group stretching. Performance on each WOD is often scored and/or ranked to encourage competition and to track individual progress.
*http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/CrossFit

My Crossfit reasons: 

It is always varied.
There is a trainer there each time to make sure you have correct form.
I don't have to think of what I'm going to do.
I am building muscles for the first time in my life. 
It can ALL be scaled. I mean all of it. 
Can't do a pull up? There is a way to scale it.
Can't do a push up? Or a handstand? They can scale it. 

It is intense and brings out the Dragon Warrior. 

Also, there is a sense of community at the 'box' I go to. It is all about beating your own devils. Not being better than anyone else. 

My question to you is- what are you doing today that makes you push outside your comfort zone? 

I am hooked on Crossfit. This picture sums up the WOD's so far! 

Up for anything

My goal is to be up for anything.

Sledding

Snowsheoing

Ice skating

Ragnar's 

5k's 

1/2 marathons

Biking

Mountain biking

Skydiving

Wedding pictures (*wink *wink)

I've always wanted the weight to stop holding me down and really it isn't anymore. I'm pretty much just averaged sized. 

So now it is about fitness. About being an athlete. About being a Dragon Warrior. Oh-yes! 

BoooYa! 

What does losing weight mean/represent for you?

Goal weight....

How'd you pick yours?

I'm just curious.

Mine came from the blasted BMI chart as being the TOP weight for my height.

When I started at 277 pounds, how was I to know what 145 pounds would look like?

So tell me... do you have a number? Where did it come from?

TTT

First things first: 
Laura Bell! Congrats on the baby! I am so excited for you and jealous! 

1.       I am in a much better mood place today. Man I was raining on my own parade yesterday. I’ve decided to do the following things to combat what I have since identified as the “winter time blues.”

a.       I’m going to continue with Crossfit. I paid for my official membership today.  Signed up for a class tonight at 5.

b.      I’m going to tan one time a week. I am a firm believer that I do enough damage to my skin in the summers so I USUALLY don’t get anywhere near a tanning bed, but seriously people, we haven’t seen the sunshine in weeks (and if it did come out for a bit I’ve been cooped up inside.) So I’m just going to go and see if it helps. If you could see what a Debbie Downer I have been the last few weeks, you’d buy me the pass.

2.       I SWEAR to you I am not going to drink anything besides water. If I get started on Sprite or whatever it is, that is all I want to drink.

3.       I can’t wait for the sun to shine and it to get about 32 degrees so I can go for a bike ride. Or ride my horse without feeling like I will freeze on the spot.

a.       Seriously, have you ever peed outside when it is -25? Cuz I have and it isn’t fun. Especially by the time I get the six layers I wear (not an exaggeration) out of the way so I don’t pee on em. Sheesh, it is a workout. Cowgirls should get extra BADASS points, you don't see cowboys having to squat. Not to mention when mother nature is calling.

4.       Doing better with food and what-what today too. I’ve got a game plan for making a few meals in advance and freezing them in 1 cup servings to I can take them to school with me for lunch and to my night job for dinner. Breakfast is easy for me- water and a greek yogurt.

5.       I need a haircut. I forgot to tell you all that I was going to “grow it out.” Well that lasted about 8 weeks (I usually get my hair cut every 5 or less) when I realized today that there is a reason my hair has been short since the 9^th grade.

6.       I’m going to get a “body composition” done on Friday where they do a full body scan and tell you percentage of body fat and other random stuff, all for 10 bucks.  Don't worry- good or bad I'll report back.

7.       Still trying to get the treadmill moved to my house- no luck so far. My family has been stinking in the “assist Lorie” department. Wonder where the complaint box is?

8.       Our cows start having babies the first of March! This signifies spring to me and I CAN NOT wait (even though it is still butt cold in comparison to most places.) Love the season.

9.       I may have drank the Kool Aid so to speak when it comes to Crossfit, it is cray-zy hard, but awesome. (I say that and I am basically just kinda getting through the warm up.)

10.   I have to get my DL renewed this year (June) and I really want to be at goal weight. Time to find the inner warrior.

Winter Blues

This is the post I was going to publish:

I’m obese again and it is depressing.

I sick and freaking tired of fighting the battle.

Exhausted.

I just want to lay around and drink sprite and eat peanut M&M’s. Do you know what happens when a girl like me does that?

She gains weight.

Know what happens when a girl like me decides she doesn’t care anymore?

She wakes up one morning and weighs 277 pounds and hates herself.

I haven’t lost any weight in over 6 months. In fact, I’ve gained about 15 pounds from my lowest.

I’m looking for my “fat pants” again. Though instead of being a size 24/26 like they were before, they are now 11/12 BUT still!

I’m depressed because I just don’t know what to do to win the war and I know that there is no “end.” Just more fighting.

I went home and slept on it (after 14 hours of work) and decided I just have a serious case of the winter time blues.

*I don't know who said it- I read it on Interest of Pin* but the quote was "It is just a bad day, not a bad life."

 

 

Weigh in

177

yep, you read that right.

Up 3 pounds from last week... or some such.

I've been working out, eating decent (ok, ok, ok not good, but I've sure eaten worse.)

And I am up.

I'm cranky.

Blah!

*UPDATE* Confessions

1. I'm going to my first Crossfit class at 3:00- I am scared TO DEATH! Petrified.
                                                        * I wanna back out*

2. The only reason I am not backing out is because I feel fat. I feel lethargic. I feel lazy.

3. I am B.O.R.E.D with running. I've just lost that loving feeling. I seriously hope that I will run more when it warms up and just add that to my routine, but I'm SO DONE with the treadmill I could scream.

4. My pants are tight, I feel icky.

I'll let you know how it goes.

I'm putting on my big girl panties and finding my "fake it till you make it attitude."

*First, it was hard. Really hard. Like I'm pretty sure the WARM UP kicked my butt. 
*Second, I LOVED IT and can't wait to do it again. Though I'm sure my muscles will be screaming in the morning. 

Pretty proud of myself for not backing out! :) 

TTT

1. This girl is exahusted. What a week.

2. I'm tired of starting over, so why do I keep stopping?

3. I would seriously give up if I wasn't afraid of gaining weight, the battle is hard. The battle is never ending. Thank heavens for my friends and people around me that keep me going when I don't have the strength to do it myself.

4. I honestly feel like I can't lose weight anymore. It is up 3 pounds, down 4, up 1... on and on and on.

5. The reason behind #5 is because I'm not exercsising like I should, so I'm trying to juggle it all with jsut eating well....

6. You know I have a hard time with "strict" diets.

7. I wanna be at goal weight- I want to be strong. To accomplish that I have decided to give Crossfit a try. I'm going to take "before" pictures and everything. I'm going to do it because I'm truly terrified of being someone "who once lost a lot of weight." Also because it isn't just about being skinny, it is about being a Dragon Warrior. Well DW's need muscles, not flabby arms.

8. Because I am so intimidated by Crossfit and all that, I have set up a few "lessons" with my instructor friend Billi, so that I can get going on it before I attend an extra class.

9. When you started this journey what did you decide you would do-- you know-- "give up" or "commit to" to accomplish what you wanted?

10. For me I promised myself that I wouldn't let excuses get in my way, and that I would go without other things to make exercise a priority. I forgot that these last few months, but I am back on track now.

Flat chested hooker/ and weigh in

What is your relationship like with the scale?

Personally, she is like my master. 

Every morning (with few exceptions) this is my routine. 

I potty (praying for a little #2 so that the scale will be THAT MUCH kinder.) 

I take my clothes off.

I say a little prayer.

I tap it.

Think to myself I really need to paint those toe nails while waiting for the double zeros.

Step on, praying again for a certain number.

Step off. 

If the number was what I expected, then I get dressed and start the day.

If the number is lower than expected, I step on one more time just to be sure. 

My day is not really ruled by the number. My mood isn't up or down. 

What that number does for me is help to keep the food I eat in check. If the number is low, well that can help motivate me to keep it that way. If it is high, well that makes me think twice about my food and exercise choices. 

Neither one is fool-proof. 

What role does the Flat Chested Hooker play in your life? Tell me, I really want to know.

Here are my numbers for this week:
Start: 277
Last week: 171.0
This week: 173.6

I didn't believe the number when I saw it last week, so this isnt' really a surprise. Just keep on swimming.

Girl Power



On a cruise for my college graduation

3 years later at my brothers wedding. 

My sister and I are rockstarts... no joke. It is so easy to be hard on ourselves. To beat ourselves up about goal weights and "shoulda, coulda, woulda's."

If you don't like something change it, but be kind to yourself (I say this, all the while knowing I am the hardest on myself.) 

Happy Tuesday!

Well slap my ass and call me Sally.

(The title has nothing to do with the post, just didn't have anything better to write and that is one of my favorite non-school sayings. Try it, it is fun.) 

“There are two primary choices in life: to accept conditions as they exist, or accept the responsibility for changing them.” ~Dr. Denis Waitley

Ladies- I had a helluva weekend. Not in a good way, either. 

I'm back on track today.... well kinda. 

Two meals replaced with homemade shakes... but I had two cookies and Mac and Cheese as well! What can I say? 

Ugh. 

Tomorrow is another new day, thank heavens. 

I've kinda got a plan though. Wanna hear it? Oh man- I just knew you did. 

Anyway, Tuesday, Wednesday and Friday I am going to take my exercise bag to work with me and go straight to the gym before I go anywhere else.  Those days I'm going to get my running in. 

*If I go home first, I won't leave. Our high today was 0. ZERO freaking degrees. Low of -21. Lets not talk about it. 

Then Monday and Thursday I am going to do my Jillian Micheals video. 
Alone. In my basement. Where hopefully no one sees. 
My parents also gave me their treadmill... I just need to get someone to haul it to my house. To the basement. I think I shall bribe my brother Squishy into helping. He is such a stud (that is how I will start the conversation.) 

You see, I've been full of excuses lately (but the pants that are too TIGHT today are squashing them.) I'm making it a priority. 

I'm also going to continue to limit sugar and eat better stuff first. 

You see, one goal I had when I started this journey is to have a better lifestyle for my children... and by that I mean the children I will have one day. 

So I have to keep going. 

TTT

1. I've got a nasty flu bug. I didn't teach school today, didn't think it would be productive to be running to the bathroom every few mintues:( I did go to my second job though. I'm feeling ok, but really there just wasn't anyone to cover if I didn't go. I just couldn't be that person that made it so other people had to work longer than they should of had to because I didn't show up.

2. Went a little off track in the sugar dept. last night. No big deal, tomorrow is another day.

3. I am in SERIOUS need of a juicer. I just gotta have one. Problem is I am a CHEAP-O, but can't bring myself to buy one that won't last. What to do? What to do?

4. I know I've posted about it before, but I have a really hard time with artificial sweetners. When I drink a lot of them. For example one 16 ounce bottle of Crystal light a couple of days in a row and It like builds up in my system and I get achey and a weird feeling. It is always the same feeling and goes away if I stop drinking/ partaking of the artificial sweetners. 

All this is fine but it takes away from a lot of options like SF hot chocolate, Crystal Light, etc. It kinda isn't fun. 

5. I'm feeling dehydrated and super icky. 

6. I never blog about it here because my home town is just TOO SMALL and everyone would figure out who was who, or at least attempt and start a bunch of rumors.... but I think I should start a blog about my dating life. A girl just can't make this stuff up, and some of it is just too funny not to share with you all. I will consider it.

7. I've got to get back on track with exercise, make it a priority. 

8. I can't get the iPad I got for Christmas to download my kindle books from Amazon. Driving me nuts. 

9. Went in for a fill on Monday, and the wonderful Amy helped me decided not to get one. It is supposed to snow this weekend and we all know how the weather make my band act like a fickle hooker. 

10. I need to post more pictures of my dog. I got a picture from my friend Vanessa the other day telling me her dogs were cheering me on and it seriously made my day. Maybe my Gracie Lou Freebush could make someone elses day:) 

10 a. Vanessa is a bad A accountability partner I couldn't do it without her.

10 b. I really, really, really, really, really need a juicer. Like yesterday. Why I didn't realize this was such a serious need until AFTER Christmas I may never know. 

Weigh in and things I love

Start weight 277
Last week: 176.6
This week: 171.0
Weekly loss: 5.6
Total loss: 106 pounds

Now at this point in the game I don't really trust a 5.6 pound loss in one week, but hell, I'm not gonna shake a spoon at it either.

Our friend Amy has challenged us to write a list of things we love about ourselves. Here is my attempt:

Things Lorie loves about Lorie:

1. I am funny.
2. I love animals.
3. I am caring/have empathy.
4. I look cute in glasses.
5. 90% of the time I stay true to me (I wish it was 100).
6. I have awesome eyelashes.
7. Beautiful straight teeth (thank-you Dad and Mom for the two sets of braces.)
8. I love people, just how they are.
9. I am loyal.
10. I can laugh at myself.
11. I am a GREAT teacher!
12.

Ok... I think that is it for now. That was hard.

On to day 3 of the sugar detox ladies! Hopefully no one gets hurt! (I kid, I kid but in all seriousness I'd love an entire package of oreo's and 1% milk, just sayin'.)

Sugar Detox

Well my friend Vanessa over at Athena Banded Warrior has inspired me to kick the sugar habit. I'm almost through the first day and couldn't of done it without her.

Also, have you all checked out Amy over at Once Upon a Time im the Land of Cheese and Sunkist? She and her girlfriend Heather are rocking their 10 day juice fast.

I've seriously got to try one of these... I mean NOW! I just need to find the money somewhere for a juicer, or steal one, or barter for one or somthing.

My roommates boyfriend is an expert on the whole "juice thing" and when I got home last night this is what he fed me:

It was a carrot/orange/lime juice and it was FANTASTIC... the cup started out full. I've been craving another glass ever since.
Why oh why am I not idependently wealthy?

Until then, I'm going to add the most awesome-est juicer EVER to my wish list on Amazon. There is always my June birthday:)

The Word

*Sparkling*

Yep that is the word for 2013! 

sparkling  present participle of spar·kle (Verb)

Verb Shine brightly with flashes of light. Be vivacious and witty.

2012/2013 Goals and a recap.

My goals from last year were as follows:

Lose 49 pounds.

Umm, that didn't happen. I lost about 19 pounds. Eek! That doesn't make me very impressed with myself.

Keep the weight off.

I've flucuated up and down but haven't really "gained" any. So I guess that is good.

Run a 1/2 marathon.

Signed up for one and bailed last minute. I did run a Ragnar though, and that is pretty bad ass I say. Maybe cooler than a 1/2 marathon.

Give up cookies.

Did this until June 20th. Something snapped and I binged on them for a week straight... so lesson learned I absolutley do not remove anything 100% from my diet. Except Pepsi.

So I'm giving myself a C+. Not great, but I sure didn't fail either.

New Goals for 2013! 

1. No new clothes until I am at goal weight- anything 145 or lower. 
2. Run 6 races, doesn't matter the length or the difficulty. Just get out there and race.
3. Weigh 145 by my 2 year bandiversary. I've got 5 months to lose 30 pounds. *Totally doable.* (Nods to self.) 
4. Make exercise something I just do. 
5. Get married. 
6. Pay off my surgery loan. I'm not sure this is doable, but I am inspired by all of the financial goals out there to give it a hell of a shot. 
7. Get a treadmill at my house. NO EXCUSES. (-13 this morning at 7:45, too stinking cold.) 

Booyah! 

Weighing in- 2013!

Todays weight: 176.6
Two weeks aga weight: 172.6

A little bit of a holiday gain. No worries.


I really need to recap 2012 and all my AWESOMENESS! I just haven't put the post together in my mind yet.

I also need to set goals for 2013... I just need to get it all ready in my head.

The one thing that will happen is I WILL BE AT GOAL WEIGHT by my second bandiversary.

(nods to self)

I will write the real deal soon.

I'm back to school tomorrow and ready to have a routine and kick this new year in the BUTT!