Tuesday, September 25, 2012

I need a map...

You know how some people get the lap band and then say "I just forget to eat" or "I never get hungry." There have been times in my journey that I thought I was about there. 
Someone I love has the Lap-band... and that really is the case with her. She just never wants to eat. EVER! 

How does a person do it?

I don’t want to stop at 165, or 170… whatever the heck my weight has been the last week.

I want get to goal.

I want to weigh 145.

I want less belly fat!! It drives me freaking bat shit crazy.

Most importantly, I don’t want food to control my life. 

What happen to the girl who exercised every day? Who only drank water? Only water!

I want to eat to live.

I don’t know how to do it.

I know how to exercise. I know how to eat healthy.

I don’t know how to make sure I don’t wake up one day and say “to hell with it! I’m going to eat what I want, when I want.”

I’m lost. I kinda feel out of control.

Right now food is in control.

“It’s impossible” said pride.
“It‘s risky” said experience
“It’s pointless” said reason.
“Give it a try” whispered the heart. 


  1. Ok miss lorie, you can do this. One day at a time...one meal at a time...heck, one food choice at a time. This "out of control". Feeling is temporary. I know u can get back in the swing of things...hang in there

  2. You have done sooooo well! You CAN and WILL reach your goal. I agree with O.C. Bandster- 1 day, 1 meal, 1 bite at a time. :)