Fat Lorie... food obsessed Lorie... sit on the couch Lorie... she has been in residence for 3 DAYS! 72 hours. The saddest part is, I've welcomed her, asked her to stay, even thought about letting her stay permanently. I haven't been in a spot like this since August. Read HERE if you are interested in the black hole I visit every once in a while.
I guess the truth is, I kinda got cocky. Thought I had this in the bag, but the really dark place that kicked me in the face when I had 99 pounds left to lose, is still there with only 35 ish pounds left, welcoming me back into a life of lazy living and over eating. I AM NOT GOING TO SET UP RESIDENCE (I thought about it) but man is it screaming at me tonight and for the last three days. . Sometimes the hardest part of this journey is that it is up to me... ME!
Alright, no time like now! I'm back on the wagon!
What do you ladies do when you fall of the wagon? How do you silence your inner fat self? (I know I'm not PC, but it is me, i'm going to roll with it).
Well blogging definitely helps me and looking at old pictures of myself. Kick that old girl out and get back to the new Lorie!
ReplyDeleteThanks Andrea! Blogging helps me too! And I'm not giving up.
DeleteI'm horrible at keeping myself motivated... but if it helps, your blog had been incredibly inspiring to me. I tend to stop exercising and eating well when I'm pregnant. It's an awful downward spiral, the worse I feel, the less I take care of myself... which makes me feel even worse, so I take care of myself even less. but your weekly inspirations have kept me on track this time;) Keep it up. We are counting on you!
ReplyDeleteKayela! How nice of you to say! I totally understand the downward spiral. That is my mindset exactly. I eat bad, so I don't move, so I eat bad, so I feel worse, so I eat bad. Terrible, terrible! I'm back on track today! :)
DeleteI gag that fatty and throw her in the closet! Thats usually after I've been chowing down for a few days. I find that the tough love works with me - 1 day of re-boot - liquids - and slowing down my brain - to live in the moment. Just as fat girl gets power every time I give in and say F-it, Athena gets her power every time I walk away from a bad choice - making the next choice that much easier. Its saying no the first time that is the hardest. Exercise helps too - but that is such a regular part of my day that it doesn't vary that much even when I go down the rabbit hole. Hope this helps....keep strong - you ARE a warrior!! Email me if you are in the moment and need to be talked off the ledge - vsaun@msn.com!
ReplyDeleteI want you to know that when I read this, I commited to doing liquids today. Set up a run with my friend for this afternoon. I already feel the warrior coming back into play. I know I can do this, but I appreciate your support. Who knew I would neeed you all so much? I may use your email sometime, and appreciate it so much! It isn't really exercise I have an issue with anymore either. I ran Saturday, never do anything Sunday (just my rule) and so it was only Monday that I skipped. Eating right is so much harder than exercise for me.
DeleteCarb detox is the only way to get rid of mine! Good luck getting that monkey off your back... you got this. :)
ReplyDeleteAren't carbs yummy:) mmmmm! Thanks for the support, I mailed that monkey out-of-state. :)
DeleteLorie! I understand...really I do. I sit sometimes and think about how far I have to go and how hard it is and wonder if its really worth all the hard work. Then I do something that I couldn't (wipe my butt, play tag with my kids) a couple of months ago and remember how hard life was then. I still have well over a 100 lbs. to go too! You have been an ispiration to me these past 16 weeks, don't you dare think about giving up! I get on the treadmill and try to "jog" and it hurts and your "dragon warrior" pops into my mind. When I want to cry and do ANYTHING but exercise, I think of being a warrior. I focus on walking Disney World with my kids. I focus on all the things I want to do when I'm thinner and it keeps me going. We all have the down days, we just need each other to pull us out. So this is my way of pulling you! Hope it works! Keep kicking butt girl!
ReplyDeleteThanks Lori! I read your blog all of the time and you inspire me! Look at you kicking butt and taking names. We do all have bad days, I'm glad we don't have to get through em all ourselves!
Deleteim really REALLY struggling right now with any desire of eating healthy or exercising. It has been almost 2 weeks since any type of quality exercise. And my diet...lets not go there.
ReplyDeleteYour dragon warrior needs to come kick my lazy ass into gear!
Kandice! I'll see you at Zumba! That's where all of the Dragon Warriors go...
Deleteok...I'm a woman of my word...and I am committing right now that I will be there. Someone gave me a new workout outfit for my birthday...I think they were giving me a hint! ;)
DeleteSo....since you will be there and I have a new outfit I will come :)