Wednesday, August 14, 2013


178 again this week.

Nothing too sad about maintaining... except I'd like to get on down to the 160's :)


Guess what happens to me occiasionally?

I still think I weigh 277 pounds.

I still feel like I take up more space in the World than I should.

This is a battle for me.

Why is there/was there ever shame attached to what I weighed/weigh?

Why do I think other people care?

How can I wear a pair of size 12 jeans and a medium shirt and still be uncomfortable in my own skin?

This brain of mine, I am telling you, it is broken some days.



  1. I don't know but if you figure it out, let me know. There are times where I pick up a size 22 and think it will fit.

  2. I think that happens to everyone. Sometimes I'm still surprised I fit into a chair. Yes I'm still big, but not the size I was. Sometimes I pick up a 22/24 and then wonder why it swallows me whole? I've read a lot about body dismorphic disorder post weight-loss and it's interesting to me. Unfortunately, I haven't seen any really good solutions to the problem.

  3. I just lol'd at Beth Ann's comment as that is exactly me!! I'm still 270 lbs inside my head and think that Oooh this is cute, and realize it's a 22. /sigh when will my self image catch up?

    I actually bought a XL shirt this weekend at the thrift store and was surprised yesterday when I put it on and it was baggy and loose. Hello Cat...nothing bigger than L anymore. and mostly medium. I'm with you Lady!