Tuesday, February 18, 2014

The weather

The weather here is like Spring.
Spring in February. It just doesn't happen in frozen over Utah.

Yes I am talking about the weather... I 'm trying to distract you from the fact that I haven't posted anything weight related in a good month.

Why? Well, as always, the reason isn't because I hit goal weight and no longer obsess about food or exercise. I just do it.


Not it.

I'm struggling at 187.

Struggling to find balance.

Find reason.

Find something that works for me...

Shit balls, struggling to get back to even the 170's and the 160's is a pipe dream.

I feel like a failure because I bailed on yet ANOTHER 1/2 marathon.

And I just can't seem to get in my groove with crossfit.

Somebody, please, please, please kick me in the butt. I am struggling.

I. Am. Struggling, but i'm not quitting.


  1. My comment disappeared, but basically, I do not want to hear this failure nonsense. You are SO not and I hope you do know that deep down. Feel bad about the struggle. It sucks. But then decide what you are going to do TODAY and do that thing TODAY.

    (That is my tough love speech. Ha! But seriously, I'm always here if you are looking for an accountability partner.)

  2. I have been following your blog for a while but don't know if I've ever commented before! Thanks for making your way to mine.

    I don't think it's a pipe dream, and of course you are not quitting! Try setting some smaller, attainable goals that you can manage just in the next week. For instance, maybe you will go to Crossfit at least twice, or maybe just once, and then see if you can do it again the week after that.

    If you were not ready to run a half-marathon, it is better to bail than to hurt yourself. There will always be another race.

  3. You know I'm with you. Just keep working out. We need to get our minds right - working out will help.