the goal

The goal in my head has always been to get under 2 hundred by the new year... I'm at 205 for the last weigh in.... think I can do it? I do!!

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Looking back.... 37 weeks

March 13, 2011: 
Today, while sitting in a sacrament meeting, in a beautiful green dress awesome shoes and a smile. I thought about how much I hate myself. Usually I wouldn't use the term "hate" but today I think that hate is truly the applicable term. I tried on 5 skirts/dresses that didn't fit right... i'm miserable, i'm huge. While I listened to the speakers contemplating 'life' I knew that I had to make a drastic change. 
I've decided to have Lap-Band weight loss surgery. I don't just want a change for today, or for this year, I want a change for the rest of my life and I'm going to have it. I know that I have to do something this drastic to have permanent, healthy weight loss. I know I can't live with myself this way any longer, I NEED A CHANGE! 
This day, 37 weeks ago changed my life. I've lost 73 pounds... I'm almost into the 190's and I have many more good days than bad. I'm learning to love myself, and make permanent, life changing, healthy decisions. And for all of those "lap-band naysayers," it changed my life and was the PERFECT decision, for me. It isn't all sun and roses, but it is a beautiful journey to a healthier, happier, Lorie. 

Friday Weigh in

Friday 11/26/11 the day after Thanksgiving and my weight is 204:) A loss of -3 pounds!

Not bad for the holidays!

Lap-Band has a sense of humor.

So I've been hesitating to write this... because I'm just a little unsure that it could be possible. But, you know how we are all always debating about what makes our band tighter?
And you know how I've been complaining about mine being SERIOUSLY way too tight, and it just keeps getting tighter? Well, I think I figured it out.
Last Monday and Tuesday I did my regular regimen of running and power toning class. Then, the rest of the week, NOTHING! I didn't move any more then I had too. And my band continued to get tighter and tighter, to the point I was having a hard time getting water down.
So last night, on a bout 300 calories for the day, I decided to go for a serious run. Almost 3 miles. Almost instantly I could feel a difference in my band. When my band gets to tight, I can feel it. Not just when I eat but all of the time. So, after the run, I just felt super good. And today? I've had a much better time eating. Still good restriction but not the CRAZY tightness that was going on! :)
I'm telling you, my Lap-Band has a sense of humor, making it impossible to skip exercise? It must know how accountable I need to be!

Too full?

So, remember my post about a week ago asking my lap-band where it had went? Because it was so loose I could eat about anything? Well, IT is back, with a vengeance. I'm getting stuck on everything, and everything hurts (feels like i've eaten gravel.) Not good.  Now some people have made the comment of "won't you just loose weight faster when it is tighter?" Here is the problem with that theory. I just stop eating the stuff that I'm suppose to because it makes me sick, and I eat sliders instead (ice-cream, cookies, cereal, all the bad stuff.) So my question is, do I wait and see if it loosens up?

Confessions

Alright, I'm confessing to my sins. This week i've completely fallen off of the lap-"band wagon." Everything i've eaten (from the good food list) has hurt like crazy, so i've been resorting to foods I know won't get stuck or feel as though I've eaten gravel.... and they are not the good foods, the foods that I'm suppose to be eating. I'm wondering if Aunt Flo has made my band tighter? I don't know what it is but i've been miserable. This week not being a loss was completely my fault because of my food choices.
I need to refocus, take charge, and become a good bandster girl again!

I can do it... 62 more pounds to go.

Friday weigh in

The results are: 207. No loss, no gain? hmmm... guess I'll run with that.

Lorie