Something new

I did something I’ve never done before.

I jumped off “the healthy wagon.”

I am proud of myself for it.

Well not the jumping part... and lets me honest, I've done that before.

I went 4 weeks with no sugar. Then had a really “bad day.” I ate some ice cream and some other stuff.

It was triggered by a really crappy band day (that hooker was zipped tight.) So I talked to my Dad about our bet and was allowed a small reprieve to help soothe the Lady. 

I know I should have reached for a protein shake, but know what? I haven’t been able to find one that doesn’t have artificial sweeteners in it, and honestly my allergy to them is getting worse. Last time I drank a protein shake it made me feel worse than I have ever felt before.  So I am working on that.

Anyway, that isn’t the BIG DEAL.

The big deal is, I didn’t let it flow over into today. I contained the mess to yesterday and today I am right back on track. Registered for crossfit for tonight and I am sugar free so far today.

Who is a badass mother? This girl.

Monday... a weigh in and the day off

I didn't have to work today.

The perks of being a teacher.

I took 3 naps today and acted like I didn't have a care in the world. Seems like that may have been the theme of the weekend.

Anywho, today my food choices were...umm... lets just say "less than stellar." We are wrapping that up in a nice little bow and leaving it behind.

The reason? Today was my 4 week weigh in of being sugar and soda free.

4 weeks ago when I started, these were my stats:

Week one: 184
Week two: 184.4
Week three: 185
Week 4: 184


So I think I just said screw it, but just for today.

So I will leave you with a picture of Ellie Pmae and her verison of "out door activities" and sunning in the winter.

Bustin' balls

For real. I commited 12 days ago to living better and being healthy.

I have stuck with it! No candy/treats and no soda for 12 days.

Those first 3 days dang near killed me, especially the 2nd one. It made feel like I had the flu and I had zero energy. I just couldn't believe what it made me feel.

Anywho, it really has gotten much easier and basically the treats are no threat to me.

They would be if I hadn't made that bet. No way in hell will I be the first one to break.

Also, in the 12 days have ran 3 timres and went to Crossfit 4 times.

Guess what the scale has done?

Well my weight the first Monday was 184.4 this morning it was 184. I'm not holding my breath for it to be much better in the morning.

I'm trying to just brush it off and move on. Recognize that it really is about taking care of my healthy..

Yadda-Yadda. Those are great things and exercise helps me to be a better person! I just want the scale to move to. Please, please you flat chested hooker, just give me a break!

On a funner note, The Husband has decided that he enjoys CF and has been 3 times already with me!

I did it!

I can't walk right this morning.

But I did it.

I went back to Crossfit and I freaking love it.

Even though I cried when I walked down my stairs this morning to put some laundry in.

Why do I forget?

Oiy- I am crazy.

Patting myself on the back

I've been a week sugar and soda free, which from this point forward will be called "Clean and Sober" because we all know, it is an addiction.

7 days clean and sober! Wow, in all of the time I have been banded I have never made it this long.

3 runs in last week as well.

Why is it so difficult to remember how good eating healthy-ish and getting moving feels?

I dunno.

I'm giving myself a pat on the back.

Biggest achievement?

I only lost .4 pounds this last week when I weighed this morning and I didn't let it derail me.

Why is it working this time and never before? I got support from home.

I made a 50$ bet with my Dad and Sister that I could make it longer than either of them.

I am cheap and stubborn... perfect combination.

Also headed back to Crossfit tonight.

I am intimidated, but I am going to the foundations class and my pal Robyn is going with me.

I'll report back!

2014- a good year to blog.

I made it like a month and a half.

Well kind of, I cheated on you all and posted a few posts on a "new blog" but this one just feels like home.

So you can skip all the posts about babies and married life and such if you want. I won't even know.

Goals for 2014:

1. Be happy. With where I am, with what I am doing and who I am with.
2. Run a 1/2 marathon (I think I have wrote this EVERY FREAKING YEAR, this is the year.)
      I've already started training for this one and I have signed up. So, yeah.
3. Find balance .
4. Live life and blog about it.
5. Lift heavy shit and brag about it.

And then there is number SIX

Find my elusive goald weight. (I have to write it. I have to.)

160. This will happen.


What kind of adventures can we have this year?

I'm already kicking this year in the ass! Started 2 days before New Years, just to avoid that "no one actually finished NY BS." So there you go. Sugar and Soda free for almost a full week. Went running three times? Boo-ya!

Warrior! I'm a warrior.

I'm saying good-bye

This has been a hard post for me to write.

I haven't blogged in a while and really I'm not sorry about it.

It seems like everyone is quitting. That the blogs I loved and the people I have come to care about and inspire me are no longer here. We are texting each other and staying caught up on FB.

And...

Lets be honest, because I have always been on this blog.

It seems like the NSV's are all Old News. That My weight is up 3 pounds then down 2.

I'll also admit that I like being married, that the time I used to burn up blogging and thinking about blog posts are spent doing other things.

Living life.

Now wasn't that the purpose of this journey? To finally live my life to the fullest. To finally not let my weight hold me back anymore?

I still want to lose 30 pounds, but I guess I will either do it, or I won't. I refuse to write another blog post, make another goal.... I guess I am fine with where I am at.

Comfortable.

This blog and this lap band SAVED MY LIFE. It gave me my life back.

My only word of advice is the same as The Warriors and Cat's. Get to goal before testing your band. Keep at it while you are on a roll. Don't listen to anyone that says "take a break" you are "loosing too fast." Push to goal and then mess around with all of it when you are at "your number."

Hugs all around ladies! I will leave you with a picture of my beautiful new family. I am silly over our babies!
And one or two of "the dress."