Ten Things Thursday

1. Yesterday was a food day FAIL. Peanut M&M's for breakfast and it was downhill from there.
Today I will do better.

2. I have had a sinus infection from hell, which has impeded all of my "best laid plans" to exercise. Maybe I wouldn't have exercised anyway.

3. Anyone else have a hard time eating well when traveling? Eek... I swear I feel like it is a free for all. Believe me, the scale isn't saying "you are doing well, treat yourself." She is a flat chested whore any-who.

4. What happened to Ragnar girl that was going to run around the World, twice? Oh yeah, she came back to the frozen tundra that is her home from.

5. I have a $600 airline credit, where should I go? I'm thinking I should spend the first week of Summer vaca somewhere...

6. I'm thinking about the Holiday challenge that From Fabulous to Fit is hosting, but I ALWAYS blow challenges. Too much pressure? I don't know. This one might be different because it is just about losing weight. Not dictating what we CAN'T eat. That gets me in big-fat-trouble. I'll decided by tomorrow.

7. I need a new "exercise" something-something. Vanessa at Athena Banded Warrior is thinking about kickboxing. Sometimes I hate living in small-ville. The exercise class times are so limited.

8. I'm going to do an entire post about exercising at 5:30 in the morning.

9. "The Wedding" is quickly approaching and not only have I not LOST weight like I had hoped... I've gained a bit.

10. I hope we get 10' of snow here soon. If it is going to be colder than frosted blue monkey balls. I DEMAND snow. There, I have asked the Universe for what I want, and incase it wasn't clear here it is in bullet form.

• I want to be 150 pounds. (Yesterday)
• I want 10' of snow. (Before February.)
• I want a 6'5" man to sweep me off my feet. (For Christmas.)

Good luck today you beautiful ladies!

Accountability Wednesday!

Here it goes. Time to drop 14.7 pounds before the new year.

Challenge start weight: 174.6
Todays weight: 174.2

Goal: 159.999
Loss: .4

Pounds to go: 14.3

There is a certain "good feeling" that comes with accountability!

Tuesday- a day for thoughts and commitments

Are you bored with life? Then Throw yourself into some work you believe in with all your heart, live for it, die for it, and you will find happiness that you thought could never be yours. Dale Carnegie

First up… confession. I weigh 174.6- EEK. Anything over 170 is an oh-crap number.

I wanna weigh 159.999 by the first of the year.

My friend Vanessa inspired me to get my sh*t in a group and get to gettin’.

My clothes are a constant reminder that I’m not longer in the mid-160’s. I don’t like it.

I have felt discontent with my own life, especially my personal life. So I’m going to keep on keeping on. Fake it till ya make it.

Why can’t things just go how I have them planned in my head?

*sigh*

Not only am I recommitting myself, along with many other great bloggers out there, but we all deserve a pat on the back (thanks Vanessa for reminding me that we need to give ourselves a pat on the back once in a while)  for doing it during the holiday season.

My commitment:

·         Regular Wednesday weighing- even when the numbers hurt- or maybe especially when they do.

·         I am back to blogging, even if it is nothing exciting.

·         Regular exercise and reporting daily, I am going to get back to this being a habit.

·         Protein first and PACK A LUNCH FOR HECK SAKE!

I am getting to goal, because I know I can.

29.4 pounds to go for that goal, time to head the right direction.

Ragnar recap

Always go with the choice that scares you the most, because that’s the one that is going to require the most from you – Caroline Myss

36 hours in a van. Run, eat, sleep?.. 

What a good time. 

This experience really changed my life. Changed how I view my body and myself. Made me realize that I am powerful that I can do anything I decide to. That I am no longer watching life from the sidelines. 

I am strong.

That being said, it was hard. 
(If you aren't interested in a crazy, long-ish race recap skip the rest of this and know the race was awesome.)

So, we got in a van and drove to Las Vegas (9 hours).

Checked into our motel and tried to sleep didn't really happen becasue I was too nervous about "what I had got myself into."

The next morning we got in that van travelled to the meeting spot and had our "team meeting." 

I was in van 2 so we would have a few hours before we started running.

Our van started running that evening- as runner 9 I was the third one out for our van. It was way colder than I expected it to be in Las Vegas and was glad that I had bought a new running jacket, boy did I ever need it. 

My first run was labled "easy" and was only 2.9 miles so I really thought it would be the easiest one for me and would be a good "start" to this crazy race I had signed up for. 

I'll be danged if it wasn't just getting dark when I started running, the wind was blowing in my face most of the way and it was ALL FREAKING UP HILL! 

I'm telling you I had to give myself a major pep talk, and if there hadn't been 11 other people counting on me I would of quit right then and there. 

I just knew that I wouldn't be able to complete my other "legs" that were labeled moderate and hard if the "easy" one about killed me off. I finished that run at my scheduled 12 minute mile pace. It was hard. My lungs were on fire. My spirit was pretty low. 

What I will tell you is that my next run happened at about 4 am. It was freezing cold and I was determined. 

It was easier. Mostly because mentally I had decided that there was no way in hell I was going to quit. I also beat my "pace."  

I accomplished something this weekend I only thought was a dream. 

Our race lasted about 36 hours. We had very little sleep, didn't make the best food choices, and had a BLAST! 

Can't wait for the next one and too see what else I can accomplish in this "new life" I have.

It isn't your job to like me, it is mine. Byron Katie  

Badge of honor

Everyone asks me about lose skin. Some people even obsess over it, asking me multiple times.

I've been known to just let them have a look.

Whats the alternative? Staying fat? If you have ever said to yourself "I'd rather be fat than have a little extra skin." Well, then I'd say you need evaluated by a professional.

Here is the dealio natives; there isn’t one person that my loose skin bothers more than me.

I get to see it EVERY. SINGLE. DAY. I shower with it, look at it in the mirror. Eek! You don’t want to know the details! … It is always there reminding me of all the damage that I did to my body. Now, considering that I have shed 110 pounds, it just isn’t that bad. Unless I bend a certain way, or purposely try and see how silly I can make it look (you are welcome for the visual.)

In fact I kind of consider it a badge of honor. All that skin used to be filled with fat.  It isn’t anymore.

I’m alive. I’m moving. I’m making more good food choices than bad.

I may never drop another pound. I plan on it, but if I don’t, it is ok.

I may never be completely comfortable with my body.

I’ll probably never have plastic surgery and if I do it won’t be for a long time. I plan on having babies at some point in my life and not just one or two.

I’ll never regret weight loss just because of a little droopy skin or the fact that I may never have a six pack, or be that girl that struts around in her bikini completely comfortable that her body is perfect.

I’m working on loving myself and plan on finding someone that will love my body just the way it is. Even if it isn’t perfect, because let us be honest even those who haven’t ever lost 100+ pounds, well they have things that aren’t perfect as well.

This is my journey, my body, my health.

The droopy skins is just one of the reminders. :)

The best NSV EVER- if I live...

I agreed to run the Las Vegas Ragnar.

Don't know what a Ragnar is? Read about it HERE
*Seriously AWESOME. 

I haven't been formally training... I just agree to be on a team last Thursday (they got desperate for another runner.)

I am so EXCITED. 

12 people

2 vans

Sleeping where ever, smelling how ever. SIGN ME UP! 

and the most important part... the sticker for the car window and a Ragnar jacket! 

I'll probably be the slowest person on the team, I don't care. 

My 3 legs together are almost 17 miles... eek. 

Still excited:) 

If I live, you'll get a full report! If I don't, know I went out as a badass and give the car sticker to Holly (I promised her.) 

Lorie.