Friday, August 31, 2012

Cookies for breakfast

What does it say about your day when you start it with cookies for breakfast?

Not the Greek yogurt and granola I had packed.

Not 1 cookie, 3.

And I skipped the gym.

Somedays I'm just no good at this healthy living thing.

You know something else I'm not good at? Not just saying "bag it" and eating whatever I want the rest of the day, just because I made a poor food choice.

I really should find AA for eaters.... wonder if they serve refreshments at the meetings?

Wednesday, August 29, 2012

Wednesday Weigh

Start weight: 277
Last weeks weight: 170.5
This weeks weigh: 167.5

Loss for the week: -3 pounds! Boooya!

Total loss: 109.5. We aren't going to talk about how one time this summer I was at 162. Nope. Just going to keep on keeping on. A 3 pound loss at this stage in the games is pretty dang awesome!

Work out Wednesday is finished. Weights and some cardio this AM with my little brother.

Monday, August 27, 2012

What does "full" feel like?

451 days after I had lap-band surgery (+/- 30 days).

 What it feels like, for me, to be full.
         When I am too tight, the food stays in the pouch for long periods of time. Sometimes making it      impossible to drink water even hours later. This is no good. It doesn't increase weight loss, it increases bad eating behaviors (i.e. searching out slider foods.) There is pain associated with eating, and I stay full for hours after I eat "normal" food. During this phase I DO NOT TOUCH BREAD, pasta or meat. I am really careful with salad, and even soft foods. Not pretty. (During this phase, my band and I are constantly butting heads.)
         When I am too loose I can eat mindlessly. I don't have to concentrate on chewing, and I am hungry within 1-2 hours after. I frequently want dessert, and seconds. I can eat bread without reserve, and pretty much everything else. (During this phase I ask myself "why isn't this working? Why does it just feel like I'm dieting again?" "I'm not sure I can do this.")
         When I am just right (which I have only discovered recently) I can eat what everyone else is eating, just in much smaller portions. I don't have foods/ food groups that I just completely avoid. I can eat all foods in moderations. I get full on 1 cup of food, plus or minus a little. If I am careful while I'm chewing, then I don't have problems. I can't eat mindlessly, because this leads to trouble.

During every fill level, I have to make wise, healthy food choices. The band does not, at any of these levels, prevent me from eating chocolate, ice cream, or from drinking more calories than I will burn in a day. It also doesn't do the exercise for me... which, if you haven't figured out yet, is a key to weight loss, even if you have the lap-band.

This is a learning process, and sometimes is it is painful, but what a great process!

Friday, August 24, 2012

10 things Thursday, or is it Friday?

I'm doing 10 things, because I don't think I can organize a "real" post.

1. Last night I had a pity party, not about weight loss (surprisingly).

2. I think #1 had to do with being emotionally and physically exahusted. Being an awesome teacher is hard stinking work.

3. At 11:30 last night my brother text and said we were going to the gym this morning.

4. At 5:00 this morning I text and told him I was too tired to go, I slept like crap.

5. He text back and said "30 more minutes of sleep isn't going to make you feel any better." Aint that the truth? Dang I hate when he is right. So I went, I felt alright.

6. I got all the way to school today (6:45) and realized I had forgot my yogurt and granola. Don't worry, I turned around and drove my happy butt home. It was yumm-o!

7. The scale was very kind to me this morning. I'm going to keep on keeping on.

8. I want to go on a horse ride tonight, or tomorrow. I will make this happen.

9. My insurance pays you for lowering your BMI... or so they say. I lowered mine 13 points last year. They are "supposed" to pay you $50 dollars everytime it goes down 5 points. This is the email I just recieved:
"The Weight Loss rebate in the amount of $100.00 was denied because: Amount exceeds the maximum allowed for this rebate." What bull is that?  I think "bull & shit" are the words I'm looking for. Oh, well what is a girl to do?

10. Do you ever realize that you blamed being fat for a lot of things it really had nothing to do with? Then as you become "average" size (or whatever) it hits you like a ton of bricks? Maybe that had something to do with last night too? *I really want answers to this one.*

Wednesday, August 22, 2012

Weekly weigh... what?

How long has it been? I'm not going to even look. I don't remember what my last posted weight is... I'm not even going to look.

Already today I've had 40 ounces of water, and i'm chowing down on Yoplait Greek Yogurt. Only 100 calories and 10g protien. With some "touch of honey granola." It is scrupmtious.

Today is the first day for students to be back at school. I've been up since 3, eek. Wonder why I still get so nervous?


Todays weight: 170.5
Start wegiht: 277

Total loss: 106.5

I'm excited to be back to school. First because I love the students. Second, because I'm already back on schedule and eating better. No more ice cream brunches!

Have a good one ladies.

Tuesday, August 21, 2012


The Habit Poem
I am your constant companion.
I am your greatest helper or heaviest burden. I will push you onward or drag you down to failure.
I am completely at your command.

Half of the things you do you might as well turn over to me and I will do them - quickly and correctly.
I am easily managed - you must be firm with me. Show me exactly how you want something done and after a few lessons, I will do it automatically.
I am the servant of great people,
and alas, of all failures as well.
Those who are great, I have made great. Those who are failures, I have made failures.

I am not a machine though
I work with the precision of a machine plus the intelligence of a person.

You may run me for profit or run me for ruin - it makes no difference to me.
Take me, train me, be firm with me, and I will place the world at your feet.
Be easy with me and I will destroy you. Who am I? I am Habit.

It isn't credited to anyone, that I can find. So if anyone knows who wrote it, please tell me.  

Monday, August 20, 2012

Guess what my body fat is?

33.5 %.

Guess where it was last year?

49. 6%

Every year we do a Healthy Utah screening for our school health insurance. This is the comparison of 1 year.

BMI: 40 Obese:( (Duh)/ BMI 29.6
Body Composition (Body fat) 49.8 (DISGUSTING) / 33.5
Total Cholesterol: 154 (under 200 is good:) / 144
HDL Cholesterol 45 (low)/  58 (desirable range!) 
Blood Pressure 100/60 Normal / 102/68
Fasting glucose: 90 (under 99 is good) / 93 

Getting healthy ladies! 

On another note I'm officially back to school today... Good, great, bad and ugly, it is here! 

Friday, August 10, 2012

It just takes one step.

I went running (3 miles... 36 minutes, just call me Usain.)
I'm an sugar free today.

I'm am closer to where I want to be.

I feel alive.
My body feels amazing.

Why do I always think that when I get off the wagon I will need a ladder to get back on? Not the case. It takes one step. I may weigh in at a whopping 170.8 (today, YIKES) but i'm not back to 277. I don't have to start over. I just have to take ONE SINGLE STEP.

So today I am 25.8 pounds away from my goal weight.

It is a heck of a long ways from the 132 pounds I needed to lose when I started this journey.

Lap Band Gal, I just now understand "there is no finish line."

And, just to show you want a girl that lost a little weight can do:

Weight limit 240~ I missed that by 70 pounds! :)

When the weight is no longer holding me down, I find out it wasn't always about the weight to begin with.

Tuesday, August 7, 2012

I'm going to run until I remember.

There are a lot of challenges going around. Fitness goals that people are setting.

Wanna know what I think? I think I'm a lazy ass.

Wanna know what I've been doing? Eating too much sugar and watching the scale go up.

Wanna know what I want to do about it? Eat more sugar and watch the scale go down.

Wanna know how that works? It doesn't.

So I'm going to forget that I just ate two rice crispy treats (that were nasty, BTW.)

I'm going to set a fitness goal just like my amazing friend ronnie.

I'm going to run.
I'm going to run until it hurts, until the sweat is falling off of me.
 I'm going to run until I remember why I started running in the first place, I'm going to run until it feels good again.
(While I type this I'm thinking about Butterfinger ice cream, I'm going to resist.)

I'm going to run until that scale says 145. Then I'm going to keep running.

I'm back on track with my band. I had .4 removed. It is a post all in itself, but no one told me what this band was supposed to feel like. I'll write about that later. About what it feels like for me.